Rocking out to some good eighties music, I drove my SUV behind a convoy of Humvees, mesmerized by the beauty of the illumination flares dangling in the air above training areas in Camp Lejeune at midnight. I was making laps around tactical training areas trying to get Maddie to sleep (the vibration of the car has been soothing lately) and I got to see some of the training going on. The way the flares hang in the air lighting the battlefield is beautiful yet so scary to me. It conjures up pictures of things I don’t really want in my head as Brandon prepares for another deployment. It is nice to be back in Lejeune though. I feel reconnected to the Marine Corps and our old life.
I finally headed back towards home when she had been snoozing about 15 minutes. Unfortunately, a cluster of seizures woke her just as we were pulling back into our neighborhood.
We got some sleep during the night, and when we woke up I packed the car yet again for another trip to Charlotte. We will fly out of the Charlotte airport for Detroit Monday morning. I packed the car while Maddie slept all morning in my mother’s lap (this may play in to why she isn’t sleeping at night….)
Brandon called as we were just prepping to lock up and jump in the car. The five minutes I got to talk to him were spent reviewing the details of our will that is being revised in preparation for the deployment. And discussing that we will be filing a grievance against the insurance company when I have time to think about it after the trip. They denied covering our visit up there so we had to switch plans in order to see the doctors we want to see (with additional costs, of course). Our insurance is still so good compared to most people’s, I feel silly even whining, but it is the principle of it that is really irking me. Plus the fact that I’ve wasted time I don’t have jumping through hoops for them. Anyway, moving on….
Driving back to Charlotte I had too much time to think. And I am trying to think about anything but the upcoming week’s testing and the possibility of brain surgery. And the even scarier possibility that brain surgery won’t be a possibility for her. And so I reflected on just how odd a typical day is for me.
You’re jealous, I know…….
Love to everyone,